9月6日 — family reunions
I love my life and cherish all my accomplishments until I am at a family reunion.
I really do not understand why everyone looks down on me as if I were some kicked puppy. It is very hard for me to join in on conversations because I can never figure out what they are talking about. Whenever my uncles ask my cousins something, they make a conversation out of their replies, but when they ask me the same thing, it feels like they do it only out of courtesy, and the conversation stops as soon as I answer. If I dare to try to talk a little more, they just pretend they did not hear me.
Every time I partake in conversations, I feel like I am walking on eggshells because I am always out of the loop, and it kills me because I really DON'T GET IT. And to be honest, I had already grown accustomed to it, but after meeting people who do listen and care, it made me feel that maybe it really isn't that hard.
It saddens me because it is my family and they have known me since forever. I have talked about this with my mom and she told me it is all in my head probably. I would never blame her for anything but her saying that only me feel worse than I already was.