12月16日 — off
girl i MISS EATING its 4.39am of the next day as im writing this but i just couldnt go to sleep without ranting abt this shitty day a bit. may continue tomorrow in a better mind if i feel like it maybe not
but yeah i didnt eat the whoooole day until my parents got worried and forced me to shove something into my mouth so um 9pm? yeah and i ate salchicha huachana w/ ritz. autistic-ass dinner
dude i just didnt feel it today i didnt feel like existing so i took the day off like a break from doing things been in my bed all day but it didnt make me feel better AT ALL so Im Just Gonna Swarm going to Marinate Myself In Chores And Productiviry Tomorrw i guess
ive been meaning to clean my whole room and declutter cause its so full of trash it stinks and i hate it i cant bring people home cause my room is just so depressing.. BUT IT IS SO FUCKING HARD TO EVEN START UGHHH i hate adhd sooo much
Also this is my first sober saturday in like a month and a half and LOL lol very sad coincidence. that im not feeling so cool today. circumstances trying to manipulate me into thinking that saturdays are better when i drink and im trying so harf not to listen >__< errr
we Will try to heal. starting tomorrow(today) first thing in the morning toodles