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i should've written this earlier it's currently 1am of the next day and enstars just announced rtmo tour. i seriously can't think of anything else rn and i had a lot to talk about today oughhhπ i'll see if i remember tmr.. but today was very okay! my chinese exam went well btw
for now please look at her. goodnight β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈ
okay so update i remembered:3 today the fnaf movie came out and three of my friends went to see it! im glad they had fun i love my friends..... anyway one of them asked me when i was going to see it and i explained them i physically and emotionally cant stand horror. i think she assumed i'm scared of weird imagery or stuff like body horror and told me oh this movie is very light though! it only has jumpscares and π€§ well that's the problem!!!!!!
i can't stand jumpscares i react really badly to them and i do not enjoy it! not only jumpscares whenever i get surprised by something it gives me a very annoying pain in the chest
and i really hate talking about this cause its too embarrassing to admit:( so i dont blame this friend for assuming i was going to see it i don't really mention this much cause what am i a baby...... ughhhh i hate this. i cried out of shame trying to explain this to him (or at least i think it was shameπ?).
back on topic yesterday i also fell asleep out of anxiousness π i think it's silly how my body reacts to stress but it's also super inconvenient..... i got very scared and anxious over a noise and the next thing i knew is i woke up an hour later!
on a final note i think its useful to write about stuff like this:) like keeping a diary and all so i have reference and know where and when to look at if i ever get professional help for these little issues..